Unbury

You are never awoken
you are never fit
You feel pain all through the day

Sometimes only short kicks
Then longer itching strikes
Its like not being you
But not standing next to yourself

Its like
you don't even know whats missing
Because you never thought you could forget
A lie buried so deep deep down
You can never ever think of forgetting

The first doubts you had were small
But as they grew and as they became daily casualty
You never cared about your heart slowly getting ripped apart

And you just have enough
Of everyone and everything
You never wanna wake up
But be careful what you wish for
It might just become reality

You never thought
That a promise this buried
And a soul this cracked
Could even tend to think of pain

Why
Would you ask.
Would it come back to you
Like the tide?
Yes you hide it
And you don't even know it

You are more than sick of it all
You wanna bury everything
Wanna deal with nothing
Wanna have no fear
But thats what you fear the most

And whatever you wanna dream
It raves to nightmares
And all you do is holy
But nothing is for the sake of anything

So why continue?
When you feel so fine and have success
Why would this pain come back at you
And you don't even know its source

Because a buried treasure can be forgotten
And a person who forgot whats in it
Might be afraid of opening it again
So why bother
An unsolveable problem I never cared for

It came back like the tide
Turned into a terrible tempest
And washed all strength away from me
Now I am a hollow shell

This sickness has no cure
But I seek this treasure
Buried in the sand
Not knowing where to start
And who to fight
Or what to fear.